before he slps,he needs to relieve this chunk of memory in here albeit the fact that he’s freakin tired/jaded.
~just felt like it was yesterday we cousins all went/rush to sec school together in the early morning, now she’s already married ! unbelievable and how swift time flies. im proud of her, prays she has an awesome and prosperous life ahead. i love my cousins.~
sighs..this isn’t easy;it hurts, & drains the mind and emotion. he’s jst not gd enough. confusing much. ;(
nw that’s cool vibrato by the lass. support ur local talents/music!
bck to work.bahh i dreamt of someone again,unexpectedly.
dang it,i’ve never felt this dispirited/down before.its like the soul’s empty and all the body parts are made of metals,IC chips and screws with only a damaged/sunken heart that assures that im still human.
oh i finally found this!~
ok quick one,gotta archive this memory.
conversations i had which give me the energy/boost needed during this crazy period.
“eh aku miss nary ah.and the times kita tinggal sebelah2.miss the feelings man!”
“yeah same.rodee!time2 kat hotel,lunch,dinner,supermarket,traffic yg gila,island semua uh”
“and walking down the alley mlm2.haha aku miss milo!takde kat s’pore seh botol besar gitu,tuang air bleh dpt 2 botol.then hari2 kau nk check email haha.kena beli card internet tu semua..”
“yup aku miss the time aku send dia email and facebk comments kat lobby uh haha.then kau kat sebelah tlg aku apa nk tulis haha.kena gigit nyamuk semua.”
i miss Cambodia… and spoke to a cousin abt our future, goals, plans, cars, investments, uni, etc. reminisced our secondary sch days; track and field, funny moments, etc…
meanwhile, it’s June isn’t it? S’pore Arts Festival, sales, etc & tests+projs!
Isn’t it amazing when u realised u fell ill twice in a space of 2 wks?just that the 2nd illness was a lot more intense and got u bed-ridden for 3 1/2 days; missing sch and lots of other things.besides the obvious issue of having to play catching up,u need to get the body and mind back to working/brilliant state.u need to recover the weight,white blood cells,momentum,confidence,etc that u’ve lost.and that needs TIME.but when it’s in a phase where everything starts to get intense and more challenging,the ‘recovery period’ seems meaningless.sometimes u just feel like relenting and drown in the sea of total madness.
i gave a weak front kick and got a big blow in my face,just when i thought i’ve almost recovered from the virus.and i screwed up again moments later,strangely foolish.hope it wasn’t as bad as i thought.i hear my projects/notes warning+threatening me…
i just feel like writing now to alleviate these thoughts.i’ll delete these when i feel it’s no longer impt to be archived here.
When im down,i love sitting alone on the slope and looking at the stars at night.the beauty and mystery of the twinkling stars just blow me away.it’s as if trying its best to speak to and console the troubled…
looking at those amazing creations of God the Almighty,Praises be upon Him,i feel a lot better.it somehow encourages/reminds me to be grateful and wakes me up.sometimes ill self-reflect and realise how much wrong and sins ive done.i know its not easy to be impeccable,im just an ordinary person.sometimes i get too engrossed with worldly matters till i forget abt my real purpose in life,my responsibilities as a Muslim.i forget that the world is impermanent.and the challenges i face everyday,sometimes i forget that these are meant to test my faith and shows that God loves me.He will never test His creations with something that is beyond his/her capability.and certain issues that happened,i know only God knows the real extent of it,He’s All-Knowing.and anything that happens,theres certainly wisdom behind it.there’re so much more i need to learn and improve.i know it’s not easy,there’ll always be sinkholes or pitfalls,but i have to keep working,insha-Allah ill become a better person.and yes,i just can’t please everyone.
add the tranquillity,silence and coolness of the night,it’s simply breathtaking…
im sitting near the verandah reading an article and trying to complete my sch projects,albeit the fact that it’s 2.30am.i got distracted/bored,hence the typing of these words.well,maybe i shall stop writing in this memorable/historical wordpad and withdraw into my shell,like a hermit.
i scrolled from the first post to the last,i saw the product of my objective;to archive some things online lest it may fade away with age/time.of course,more things had happened and will happen but you’ll never know what the future holds.only God,the All-Knowing,knows and thus,to Him ill always ask for mercy and help.
im bewildered by certain issues.from social to political ones,etc.(in the bckground,93.8 is discussing abt marital issues,school,gambling,etc!).i ask,why do some tend to reach a conclusion/contribute an idea even w/o knowing anything abt that particular topic.or simply,an idea/stand shld be backed with evidence or rational reasons,only then the related parties could benefit and avoid unnecessary problems.besides,it doesnt require 1000KJ to ask or even think!
case study:israel’s attack on Palestine (below elaborate my thoughts better)
Into the Abyss: Gaza and the Crisis of Political Morality
If he who knows not would simply remain silent, disputation would stop. – Socrates
as usual,there’re trillions of issues circulating in both brilliant & curious inventions called brain and media respectively.but sadly,when a sleep/rest is in need due to a certain degree of fatigue,one just says,”a sleep is a sleep”.so here’s;
Exercise, sleep cuts cancer risk: study
Nap without guilt: It boosts sophisticated memory
Is superfood omega-3 keeping its promise?
meanwhile,
Shaykh Hamza Yusuf Meets the Pope
and useful articles at Islam way.
check out this space aft e mid-term papers.(to any kind soul reading,if there’s any)
1)”Responsibilities,patience,self-reliance,determination,right mindset,etc”.im young,growing up and still learning(for sure i make mistakes,but i try to learn from them).i’ve always believed one has to keep improving in life.no one is ever perfect,no matter how good you are.and i wont forget the days when i woke up myself and prepare my own pre-dawn meal at 4/5am,all alone,when my parents and siblings were away.it felt like the dull-version of the film “Home Alone”.oh yes,the memorable & unique experience of watching the inaugural F1 night race;S’pore GP;from the grandstand.thanks dad!
2)Relishing the prospect of speaking basic German.(prefer French,still)
3)Economic recession,rising cost of living,conflicts,corruption,environmental probs,poverty,etc.these are what u get when you a)flip open the newspapers b)watch the news c)read articles online.(at least more worthwhile than articles like “how to burn 10 kilos in 10 days” or some other daft gimmicks)
4)Visiting the tranquil beach alone and de-stress.shady trees,cool breeze,waves doing hopscotch on the fine sands,clear blue sky which resembles a mirror where u can self-reflect and introspect.at the same time,to be grateful to God for His ni’mat.
5)Theatre “Sidang Burung” in Esplanade generates a certain degree of deep-thinking and philosophy.for me,it’s like a poetry in motion,artistic and metaphorical.certainly not an easy play to interpret.only after looking at the whole pict(the brochure helped a bit!) did i realise what it was all about.
6)aku terlihat gadis itu lagi;di luar studio teater esplanade.terkejut tapi alhamdulillah,ku bisa tenang dengan gaya selamba yg sudah menjadi kebiasaan apabila ku merasa malu.tiba-tiba ku rasa seakan disuntik inspirasi…
in a bid to archive the experience/memory online lest they somehow fade away,this words are penned down painstakingly yet imperatively.(time:4.39am)
just got bck from outing with ex-classmates in NP.watched a virtuosic musical performance by NP Strings at dbs auditorium (creepy vicinity not meant for food-lovers).good,ludicrous jokes-couldnt stop focusing on that petite girl playing the guitar-during the performance.other than that,most of the time was spent wondering if im the one playing an acoustic on stage (no more those dull songs definitely).
then off to watch Death Race,at DG.one word;amazing.great graphics,cool racing cars and acting/ladies.and like other few inspiring movies,one becomes spirited and the notion of pulling sth related tends to surface.nevertheless,were given a ride on a friend’s BMW.journey home took a twist as the car accidentally entered the Wdlands Immigration Checkpt;apparent long wait in late night/early morning (pity no passport).finally free,raced home.memorable/useful experience with nice lads.
ok fasting month’s back!brings back good memories as well as another chance to make amendments.and check this heavenly fruit out pls-FIGS.(mentioned in the surah At-Tin and also in the hadith:
Abu ad-Darda r.a narrated that the Prophet(s.a.w) said,“If I could say that a fruit was sent down from Heaven (to earth), I would say it is figs, because the Heaven’s fruit has no stones. Eat it, as it cures hemorrhoids & it is useful for treating gout.”)
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